The Broken: Fully Spoiled Movie Review
Posted: July 26, 2012 Filed under: Uncategorized Leave a comment » 
Hi movie fans. To this post I warmly greet you!
The Broken , was written and directed by Sean Ellis, Guy Farley was responsible for the original haunting musical score, and Angus Hudson for the beautiful cinematography. The Broken was filmed mostly in London, England, and was part of the AfterDark HorrorFest of 1998: 8 films to die for
The first time I tried to watch this film I fell asleep because I was very tired. The second time I tried to watch it I was confused and did not understand what was going on, but I watched the first thirty minutes, replayed my favorite scene three times, and then accidentally started the film over again, but I was glad that I did because this third beginning I finally began to understand what was going on and I began to feel excited about the journey I was on, and could not wait to continue to the end. Once I had finished I still had many unanswered questions, but because I truly enjoyed the journey I did not feel angry, let down or cheated by the fact that the questions raised by the film were never adequately answered. This is unusual for me. I do not generally get into the the artsy/stylistic films where atmosphere and theme are more important than plot, but in the case of The Broken I ended the film feeling that it was perfect, and I added it to my top 5 list in the horror category.
Learning to be realistically confident: How to deal with failure
Posted: February 11, 2012 Filed under: Angie/Ksennia | Tags: acomplishing goals, confidence building, wrong attitude Leave a comment »“I have a problem with confidence,” K’Sennia confessed to her therapist, Dr. Angela Thornton.
“I see, ” Dr. Thornton said wisely. “What exactly is the nature of your problem with confidence?”
“I don’t have any.” K’Sennia replied.
“This is a very serious problem, ” Dr. Thornton said. “If you don’t believe that you have the power to accomplish things then you never will.”
K’Sennia nodded. “That’s why I’ve never done anything with my life.”
Dr. Thornton leaned forward on her grey-blue swivel chair and said, “Tell me, Kay. What would you like to accomplish?”
“I would like to one day support myself by writing. But I know I never will.” Kay looked down at her pretty black sandals sadly.
“Now that’s the wrong attitude to have.” The doctor said sternly. “Do you know how to write?”
K’Sennia shrugged. “I know how to write, and it’s something that I really love to do, but I know lots of people who are way better than me.”
“If you can write, and it is what you truly want to do, K’Sennia then you need to do it every day. You need to be constantly looking to learn new and better techniques for your writing. You need to develop your own unique voice, and you must begin submitting samples of your writing to publishers and the like. “
“I want to do those things,” K’Sennia said. “But I’m afraid that if I try I”ll fail. That’s the real reason why I don’t have any confidence because whenever I try to do something, and I get myself all psyched up by believing really hard in myself and my abilities I end up failing miserably.”
“We all fail, dear.” Dr, Thornton said kindly. “Failure is nothing to be afraid of. You just need to look at failure with the correct attitude.”
“I know that.” Kay replied a bit sulkily. “But whenever I fail at something I just withdraw inside myself. I feel embarrased, and angry at myself. I feel like I can’t do anything right, and I wish that I’d never tried, and I just want to be a turtle so that I can curl up inside my shell and never come out or try to do anything ever again!”
“My, K’Sennia. That is very dramatic, but then you always have been known to switch from one extreme emotion to the next.” The doctor studied her patient thoughtfully for a moment before asking, “when you make a mistake, K’Sennia, can you usually fix it?”
Kay shrugged. “Sometimes I can, but usually I just get so freaked out that I can’t figure out what I need to do.”
“Perhaps when you are doing something new or challenging, rather than telling yourself that you know you can do it, you should tell yourself, “If I make a mistake I can fix it.” That way if you do make a mistake your mind will already be prepared, and you should be able to concentrate better on fixing your mistake and then moving on.”
“That could work.” K’Sennia brightened for a moment. “But what if I can’t fix it?”
“If you are unable to fix the problem yourself then you learn how to fix it, or you find someone else to fix it for you. The lesson that I want you to learn is that making a mistake or encountering resistance or a problem of some kind is not the end. If you are walking into a situation expecting that everything is going to be easy, and that you will be able to do everything perfectly, then of course you are going to end up feeling like a failure. But if you understand that things may not be so easy,and you go in expecting opposition, blunders,confusion, and stress then you should be able to stay calm enough to deal.”
K’Sennia listened closely. Dr. Thornton sometimes liked to make long speeches, which could get a little dull sometimes, but she knew that her doctor was one smart lady, so K’Sennia always tried to pay attention. “That can be really scary though.Going into a situation where I don’t know what to do. And if other people expect me to know and I don’t, it makes me feel so stupid.”
“If you don’t know something then you can learn it, but you need to be patient with yourself, K’Sennia. And you can’t worry about what other people will think. You just have to do what is right for you. If you are satisfied, and if you know that you have done your best then that is all that matters.”
“That’s easy to say, but tis much harder to do,” K’Sennia said. “And what other people think does matter. If I can’t get anyone to like my writing then I will never get paid for it.”
“If you are going to pursue a career in the writing field then you are going to have to learn to deal with rejection.” Dr. Thornton said. “You will likely be rejected many times over and over again. Especially in the beginning. You will receive a lot of criticism, as well.Even when you are successful. “
“I don’t like the sound of that, K’Sennia said. “I just want people to like me.”
“Of course you do, dear. But those are the realities of life. Rather than working on simply being confident in yourself you need to learn to be realistically confident. If you have a proper attitude about yourself, and a proper perspective of the world then no one will be able to steal your confidence away.”
“So I shouldn’t expect to be perfect, I should expect to make mistakes,and to experience problems,and I should just do my best and not worry about what anyone else says.” K’Sennia recited, holding up one finger for each step, “And I shouldn’t be afraid to fail or to be rejected.”
Kay had a sudden thought. “But I can’t just keep trying over and over and failing over and over again. At some point I’ve got to face reality that this thing I want is never going to happen, right? How do I know when I’ve reached that point?”
“That’s a good question.” Dr. Thornton said, with a nod. “But I can’t give you a definitive answer to that. Each situation you are in is going to be different, and of course you can prevent this type of scenario by being realistic with your expectations right off the bat.”
“You mean like not thinking that I can fly cause I’m not a bird? Because no matter how much I might want to be a bird I can never be one.”
“Well in a way, ” The doctor said. “Except in a situation like that, while it is true that you cannot turn yourself into a bird there are other ways to fly. Such as in an airplane or in a balloon, or in some type of wind glider. Sometimes we can succeed in a situation by simply compromising a bit on how we accomplish our goal.”
“That makes sense,” Kay said. “Also sometimes when I want something and I don’t get it my circumstances end up changing and then I’m glad that I didn’t get it after all.”
“You need to think about all of the times that you have succeeded too. Don’t dwell on the negatives. And if you succeed at something, after making a lot of mistakes beforehand, and failing several times this does not void your victory…..”
V is for Victory!” K’Sennia interrupted, then clapped her hand over her mouth. “Sorry. I couldn’t help it.”
“V is a good show.” Dr. Thornton acknowledged, good naturedly. “Now where were we?”
“I need to relive my victories not my failures.” K’Sennia recited to show that she really had been listening.
“Exactly.” Dr. Angie said approvingly. “Now do you have any other concerns or issues you would like to bring up?” She looked up at the black cat clock which was hanging on the wall. “Your hour is almost up, I’m afraid.”
“I thought you said I shouldn’t be afraid?” K’Sennia looked confuzzled.
“There are different kinds of fear. There is the kind of fear that prevents you from trying new things or from retrying old things, this is the kind of fear to be avoided. While the other kind simply makes you aware that there are dangers, and that you should be careful. The second kind of fear is wise.” Dr. Thornton explained.
“Oh, I see.” K’Sennia said. “I suppose that being prepared for the future is also a good way to prevent my confidence from slipping away.”
“Excellent.” The doctor smiled just as the cat began to meow three times, signalling the end of their session together. ”Now before you go, K’Sennia I just want to say that I can talk and talk to you until I’m blue in the face, but ultimately you are the one who has to make the changes. You can take these lessons that I’ve taught you to heart and implement them in your daily life, or you can just ignore me and do what you were doing before. The choice is yours, dear.”
“Thank You, Dr. Thornton.” K’Sennia said. “I do appreciate everything you’ve told me, and I will try to do the things you’ve told me to do. Honest.” K’Sennia smiled her best honest smile. She really would try because she did want to be a successful realistically confident person one day, and she realized that even though it would be hard, she was going to have to tackle her fear of failure.
K’Sennia’s V’Diary from “A Bright new Day”
Posted: March 29, 2011 Filed under: Uncategorized Leave a comment »From the private V’Diary
of
K’Sennia Visitor
(written during V season one, episode three, entitled “A bright new day.” )
(And from Evelyn Diana Wright’s/Vala the Great’s original shoty story of how Anna discovered Evie.)
Dear V’Diary:
Today the humans gave Anna and some of the other Vs little red books with their pictures in them. Apparently these little books say that Anna and the other Vs who have them can walk around down there without being killed by their police soldiers. I didn’t get one though. 
I asked Anna, and she said that I’m not allowed to go to the ground, but that if I ever did it would be to kill someone and their police soldiers wouldn’t allow me to do that even if I did have a little book with my picture in it.I want one anyway, but I never get what I want so why should today be any different?
There was this V called Dale (I did not know him, but he was a sleeper down on earth for almost twenty years), and he was supposed to infiltrate a human resistance meeting and kill everyone there, but instead of doing that the wimp almost let the humans kill him. If I had been involved in that fight I would have taken them all out singlehandedly. No brag. Just fact. But I guess Dale was not much of a fighter and he had to be brought up to our ship to be healed.
I was mopping around the corner and overheard Marcus and Joshua talking about him. Joshua said Marcus had amnesia, which is a condition that makes you forget stuff. I had to ask Joshua because I did notknow, but I know it now. Marcus was quite cross with Dale for having amnesia. He told Joshua that it was very important for him to make Dale remember if he was compromised, and if so by whom.
I was interested in knowing this too, and I hoped that when Joshua found out that Anna would send me down to do the job correctly. I was quite excited by the possibilities and spend the next few hours dreaming up fun ways to kill the humans that silly Dale let free.
After I finished mopping the corridor I decided to take a break in my favorite hiding place in the ceiling above Anna’s office. Anna was watching Chad Decker on TV and then this lady named Mary Faulkner. I think Mary’s husband had tried to stop our mother ship from landing somehow, and he ended up dying.
I thought he deserved it for being so silly, but Mary was really upset and was going on a huger strike, and then she was going to make a speech in front of the peace ambassador center. Anna told Marcus, who was there too, that this woman was becoming the face of the protest movement and she needed to stop her before she became too popular. Anna does not like anyone being more popular than her.
She told Marcus to find out everything he could on Mary. I will admit that I was sooo comfortable in my cozy hiding place that I took a little nap. When I woke up Anna was holding a meeting with the twenty-nine ship captains. None of the captains were really there, they were all attending holograpically, because they have very important jobs and they could not just leave them every time Anna had something new she wanted to tell them.
Today, she wanted to tell them to monitor all of the humans in their areas and to look for any signs of resistance. If they see any they are to crush it immediately. I like the idea of crushing resistance, and I had to cover my mouth while I giggled at the image of crushing people.
I left my hiding place to go get lunch and on my way to my supply closet I noticed Marcus and Anna having a little private meeting. I kind of hovered in the doorway, and heard Marcus telling Anna that he had brought her the information on Mary Faulkner that she asked for.
Then Anna who is scarily good at reading minds sometimes read Marcus’ and answered his unasked question of why she was so concerned with Mary when she had much bigger concerns. Anna replied that Mary hates us because of her husband getting killed and that hatred is contagious. Anna told Marcus she needed to make an example out of Mary so that she could not infect anyone else.
Marcus looked kind of skeptical, but it made sense to me. I hurried along back to my supply closet before either one of them could catch me spying. I am a really good spy, so I rarely ever get caught.
I had been putting off cleaning down in the Peace Ambassador center for a while, but with the press conference happening down there later, and rumors circulating about an assassination attempt I decided that today would be a good day to go down. I was suspicious and a little hurt to hear Anna called in the FBI, but I suppose I cannot do everything. Still it would have been nice to be asked.
I took my cart of cleaning supplies down in the elevator, like a good little V spy though. I knew that unless given further orders spying was always my first duty, so that is what I planned to do. The human FBI managed to catch the silly human who was trying to kill someone. Of course he made it rather easy for them. I guess humans criminals just are not that smart.
I stayed down there to wait for the conference. I saw Chad Decker arrive early with his little entourage of helpers so that he could talk about what had happened on his show. And there was this peace ambassador I had noticed before. She and Decker were chatting before he made his announcement about the silly human attacker, in a way that seemed to suggest they were very good friends, but that may just have been me. *shrugs*
I heard Decker call her Evie, and I watched Evie curiously head off to work. The FBI had all gone home, although there were still a lot of our security Vs hanging around. I think the pitiful assassination attempt scared them.
I saw Marcus looking at Evie, in a strange way, and then I saw him on the phone. I was too far away to hear what was said. I doubted it was anything very interesting until I saw Anna coming down in the elevator. She came down for Evie I could tell by the look in her eyes, as she was staring at her. I was not sure why Anna was so interested in Evie, although from what I observed she did seem rather nice, for a human.
Evie must have noticed she was being watched because I saw her heading for the exit. Anna saw too and whispered something to Marcus. Marcus went after her. I was able to position myself by the doors (I was wiping off the fingerprints), so I could hear what they were saying.
Marcus told Evie that Anna wanted to meet her, but Evie did not want to meet her. She seemed scared to me, poor thing. But I knew that if Anna wanted to meet her there was nothing Evie could do about it, and sure enough Marcus was soon leading her towards his office. I kept cleaning off fingerprints until I saw the door open and Evie running again towards the exit. I had to admit the lady had spunk.
Marcus easily caught up with her. I could see she was trembling and shaking, and Decker, who also seemed to be keeping a wary eye on Evie saw what was happening too. I caught a lot of meaningful eye contact between them. Marcus did not seem to notice at all. He was too busy sniffing Evie’s neck and whispering to her. Honestly that V can be sooo weird sometimes.
I have excellent hearing, but even so to hear what was said I would have had to get a lot closer, and doing so would have most definitely given it away that I was spying on them. But whatever Marcus said made Evie agree to go with him back to his office where Anna was still waiting, or so I assumed since I had not seen her leave.
I stayed by the front windows and cleaned off the rest of the fingerprints until I saw Anna and Marcus leaving. Evie was being carried by medics on a stretcher. She was being taken up to the mother ship. Coool! I thought. If she was going to stay maybe we could become friends.
I chose to stay where I was because I did have a pretty long list of things that needed cleaning down there, and there only had a couple of hours until the press conference anyway. I just happened to be cleaning in the back corridors when I noticed Anna again. She headed for a side exit door; curiously I followed her -surrepticiously, of course.
I saw Anna step outside. She kept the door open, and I was able to hear Mary Faulkner’s voice. Anna was asking her to step inside for a nice chat. Uh Oh, I thought. I also felt a tiny stab of jealousy that she was spending all this time with these stupid humans, and hardly any time with me. What was I? Chopped liver?
Mary agreed, and stepped inside, but someone was coming and I had to quickly hide inside of an empty room so I would not be discovered, and somehow I lost them. So I went reluctantly back to cleaning until the press conference started. I made sure I had a good spot to watch it from, but I will not even tell you, dear V’Diary where I was it is that top secret.
I do not know what Anna did to that Mary woman, she seemed suspiciously different to me, however, she told everyone at her conference that she changed her mind and now she loves the visitors, and she thinks we should all be friends. Then Anna joined her, and said we are not your enemies. Your real enemy is hate. We just want to be your friends and live with you in peace.
I was alone in my hiding place so I laughed muchly. I do not know exactly what Anna wants to do to the humans, but I do know that we did not come all the way here, and work so hard for so long just to make new friends.
After the conference I went back to the ship and discovered that Dale had been murdered. I was disappointed that he died without giving up any names, but I did learn while spying that the supposed human who was trying to kill a V was actually a V, and Anna set the whole thing up to make us look good better. You cannot tell anyone V’Diary. It is a secret.
I am tired now and will be going to bed but first I want to go find this Evie. Anna may not be concerned with making new friends, but Evie seems really nice, and I think I would like to get to know her better.
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